I was asleep. She scooped him up and hurried back to the bedroom with him, and woke me up. He was still out of control and clearly afraid and confused, tail covering hole. It was probably fortunate I was asleep, because I had a relatively easy time staying calm for some reason, although I know I've been thinking about him constantly for the past three days.
He was making almost a full round paddling motion with each of his front legs, and his neck seemed stuck to one side. We brought him to the couch, and sat with him, petting and reassuring him. His eyes were fixed on me, almost like he was asking for help. Gradually, the paddling legs stopped, and all that remained was his neck situation...gradually that loosened up too, and he started panting like he had run a marathon. His body was worn out. Then he laid down, and fell asleep.
Naturally Kristen called the emergency vet while I was looking up doggie seizures on the internet. They told us it was something that could be a fluke, as many dogs will have isolated seizures, and that dogs can even have one seizure a year and be fine. We called our vet the next morning and she said the same thing. That was Friday, today is Tuesday.
So that's the story. I don't think there's a way to adequately express the fear that we felt for our little schnauzer friend. He was so helpless, and there was nothing we could do to help him except tell him, stay calm, pet him, and reassure him.
But in that moment you start wondering if you're spending the last moments you ever will with him. I knew that other than trying to save him, it was important for him to know that we loved him, so I told him a lot as part of the reassurance. I hope he knows what it means when we tell him that we love him. He's a wonderful welcoming friend after a bad day, and a snuggly comforter when I'm tired. He's a calming presence under stress, and a joyful presence when I'm sad.
I hope he knows.